Anywhere But Here

Authors Note: The end of Jekyll and Hyde was about Jekyll's last words in writing before being taken away by Hyde and his evil. Hyde was just a mask that Jekyll held up to hide any insecurities that he had because he grew up with such high expectations of himself and felt that he couldnt reach them. Knowing this, I wrote about how insecurities can be taken to yet another extreme.

My insecurities overide any possible chance of me escaping this chamber. I have dug myself a hole too deep to get out of and now I am left with nothing but the feeling of guilt and regret. Help me, God. I ask You for forgiveness. I write my final words saying...

Take me anywhere; anywhere but here.
Please.
I have realized that this is not me.
In fact, it has never been me.
I was hiding behind a mask with no identity
And felt I could get away with anything.
No one would have known besides me.

But the truth was that it was killing me.
Viciously stabbing my heart every second I lived in denial.
What pain and hurt it brought me
That I know.
But for some reason the mask still clung to my face.
Affraid to change back
Because, truthfully, I forgot who I was.
I had no idea.
The mask became apart of me and I was losing myself through it all.

Now here you find me.
Clinging to every last ounce of life.
I took something too far
And it has come back to get me.
More powerful and strong.

I cry and weep.
each tear streams down my face of sorrow.
each tear resembles every regret that I am letting go
In order to save myself
From the insecurities.
From the mask.

Go away.
Shed from my face and soul.
You do not belong.
You never have.
I wish away your existance
Because you have done nothing but harm.
Every day has been a marothon
Living with insecurities.
You haunt my dreams and scar reality
I am enslaved by my own fears.
So go away.
Shed from my face and soul.
You do not belong.

Take me anywhere; anywhere but hear.
I have long lived a life of evil
And now wish for a life of no pain.
Oh heavenly Father, I will see you soon.
Goodbye all that is sane and all that is evil
Tell my mother and father I love them dearly.
Forever they rest in my heart.
Forever may the old me rest in theirs.